I remember that very day . That day which you ask for break saying that you were too stress up by studies. Saying that we would get together once your N's had finish. That moment,i was waiting for my next class...Holding my tears and i excuse myself to the washroom.

I remember the day when i discovered all you said was a lie. I cried so hard and ended up having a bad headache. That very day you patch with me. But not for long. At that very night, you told me you could not forget him and leave me once again. I cried hard again on my way home,not caring the looks given by the passer-bys. It's has been the first time since I cried for days.

I remember that very day ...August , you asked for a break again. Saying that I'm not serious at all. All I could feel is my heart was once shattered again. Pain..very painful.. Hoping you will know the truth one day , why I didn't meet you on the very day.

I remember the times that i thought i could be with you again. The hopes you gave me through your words. But it was once shattered when you apologize to me that you choose the other guy. Instantly I felt my whole world was once again gone black. Everything is black, hurtful..Not wanting to care others . Just got stuck into my own painful world.

I remember that day when i took my courage to ask you whether there is hope for me because your attitude towards me gotten colder after a day. You said maybe...and i knew that my chance was gone, my hope was dropped. There's nothing I could do any longer.. That very day , when we officially become stranger. That very day which we had our last contact. I cried like a baby for days. Ignoring everyone and just wanted to be alone. I thought we could be together and spend your birthday together. I thought so . But it wasn't. You ended up with another guy...

Till now , my heart hurts and my tears drop whenever I thought of those times... Till now is still hurts. It stings so much...I am now still in my lonely world. Just me. Protecting myself from getting further damage. Trying to lock all those memories away but failed...

Till now, I still love you, not lesser from those days...

Labels: Feelings, Memories

- posted by SteelLimey @ 11:05 PM